Wayward: self-willed; rebellious; unruly; impulsive

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Nursery and More

I feel like the pictures don't do the room justice. I'm still working on a few projects, go figure.




My birthday lunch at Don Pablos on the river. Outdoors+mexican food=happiness :)



Texas Tech Cuties




Oktoberfest and Fountain Square






Delivery Plan

I'm still getting ready. I love it. I love planning and packing and preparing. Even if everything does change after I've already got everything ready. I can't help it, I'm just so excited! :0

We found out that Carey is off on Wednesday (the day of the surgery) and Thursday. At least we're 95% sure he's off. The schedule isn't really clear to me but he seems to think he's off, so I'm going with it. That means that AGW will make it to preschool for pictures (yay!) and that Carey can pick up my mom from the airport (a huge relief for her). Unfortunately Carey is on call Friday, so he'll be immediately thrown back into the rotation. That means he'll have slept at the hospital 3 nights in a row, yuck. That also means that it'll be just me and Hayes alone in the hospital Friday. Great bonding time with my big man!

During the surgery a sweet friend from church is going to watch AGW at her house. This family has 2 young girls and Holly also babysits a few other kids during the week, so AGW will have lots of friends to keep her occupied. She loves going to "play" at this friend's house during our Life Group on Sunday nights and it's comforting to know that she's familiar with the family. Carey will pick up AGW after the surgery and all 4 of us will stay the night at the hospital. I'm actually VERY excited that we'll all be together as a family for that first night!

So that's my plan. We'll see how it matches up with God's plan :)

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Happy Birthday!

Today is my birthday. I'm 28 and loving it. It's going to be a fabulous year and I'm off to a fabulous start.



Well actually, I wasn't off to a fabulous start this morning. I was suppose to have my last doctor appointment at 8:45. In order to get into the city, find a spot in the parking garage, and get to the 8th floor on time, I would have to leave by 8:00. I woke up at 8:05. I jumped out of bed and into the shower before I realized that I could never wake my toddler, get us both dressed, and out the door in time to make it. So I got back in bed and called the doctor's office. I was put on hold long enough to fall back to sleep with the phone to my ear and finally around 8:45 I made a new appointment for later in the afternoon. Then I went back to sleep. Again.



My sweet baby girl must have been exhausted too. She let me sleep until 10:30! It was wonderful! Together we enjoyed a birthday breakfast of biscuits and budda (butter) and then played outside for a while.



On the way to the doctor's office I tried to prepare myself for "bad" news. I wanted to hear "Oh wow! This baby is coming today!" :) but instead, I got the "bad" news. "Bad" news is that there is no progress. Zero. Zip. Nada. So we are scheduled for a c-section next Wednesday, October 6th at 1:00 p.m. This isn't really "bad" news, it's God's way of saying "hey! I'm in charge here and I know best". Good thing because I would probably screw it up if I had my way.



So now I am busy planning and preparing for the surgery. We're deciding what to do with AGW during the afternoon of the surgery, how to get her to preschool for pictures, and how to pick up my mom from the airport. It's kind of difficult to make arrangements when I don't know Carey's schedule. I have no idea if he's even off on Wednesday and Thursday, but I'm going to assume that he is. You know what assuming does...



I'm working on getting everything ready at the house so that my Mom has it as easy as possible during the 2-3 days that she's home with AGW while I'm still at the hospital. I'm also working on a list of activities that AGW can do with me while I'm sitting and recovering. You can clearly see that I'm planning and scheduling and preparing as usual. I'm fully aware that things don't usually goes as planned, but it helps me to feel like I have some control of the situation.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Agw says "I are sooo fast!" and "I yove you toooo much" (so much) ;)

Friday, September 24, 2010

Preschool

Today AGW and I walked to school. In two year old footsteps, its about a 17 minute walk. She has brand new, white and pink tennis shoes that make her really fast. So fast that she can run like the leaves blowing in the wind. She's loving the fall breeze and how it blows through her hair. She tilts her head back, squints into the sun, throws her arms wide, and runs fast just loving how the breeze feels through her hair. Last year she didn't have long hair and she couldn't run down the side walk without falling, so this is a beautiful and new experience for her. I love watching it.

We were just a few minutes early for preschool so we waited in the hall with several other parents and classmates. The very moment that the door opened AGW took off running to the classroom. No hug. No goodbye. Not even a glance back at me. The teacher looked up at me surprised and I stood in shock. I actually had to think to myself "Ok. This is a good thing. She is comfortable here. She likes school. She's independent. You have to accept this and leave. You need to make your legs move." Ouch. She was the first one in the door and she took off sprinting to get there. She's eager to grow, learn, explore, establish Independence, and interact with kids. She is already starting to cut ties from her Momma. I wasn't prepared for this. I thought they would be dependant and need you for a while longer. She's only two, how can she already want to start separating from me? I can see that I'm beginning a new chapter in life now. One that I will battle with for the rest of my life: letting go of my baby. I'm so glad I have the rest of my life to establish new bonds with her because this letting go business is difficult. :)

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Welcome Fall.... where ever you are. Today's high is 97 degrees! This northern weather is nothing like I expected. I really hoped to be closer to cool, crisp, fall weather as we enter into October. Instead the heat is sticking around and pretty much killing everything. The leaves are falling as I expected, but only because they're dying. I am thankful though, that the humidity is gone. That could've been unbearable. With all of this wild heat, I've decided that Baby Hayes is holding out for cooler weather. He may have to cook a while longer. Because I expected cooler weather at this time of year, all of Hayes' newborn outfits are warm, cuddly, sweater sets. Hmm. Unless Mother Nature changes her mind or I keep the AC cranked, he's not going to be wearing those!

We have a c-section scheduled for October 6th just in case Hayes is stubborn like his sister and doesn't want to come out. I'm not progressing much so I've accepted the surgery and I'm making preparations for the recovery. I do have one major concern: Preschool Picture Day. The surgery is set for a Wednesday and AGW has school Thursday and Friday. I'll have to stay in the hospital those days, but Thursday is Picture Day! She can't miss that! So somehow, Carey will have to manage to get off work Wednesday AND Thursday just so he can take her to preschool. Do you think the upper level surgeons will understand that? I mean, they're only saving lives right? :)

On that note, this is the 2nd week of preschool and AGW is doing very well. I'm so proud that she isn't one of those kids who screams and cries and makes drop-off miserable. I find myself getting frustrated with those kids (even though it's totally natural and understandable) because they make good kids (like my perfect AGW :) hesitant and a little on edge. Can't they just be put in another room until they get it together for the sake of the other kids? Kidding, just kidding... kind of.

Carey is wrapping up his last 2 days of Cardiothoracic Surgery. I hate to admit it, but this month flew by. I know he's glad it did because he was bored. CT isn't the kind of rotation that allows much hands-on learning. He gets to be in the clinic (he hates the clinic), round daily, participate in codes (he likes that part), and hopefully observe a cool case IF there is enough room for him in the OR. He's pretty much last in line but occasionally he gets to sew up someone. I think he was encouraged by one of the upper level resident's lifestyle. This guy was off two weekends and flew to Chicago for a getaway and then Boston for another weekend vaca. Not that we'll have money for anything like that, but camping trips with the kids would be nice.

Next week Carey begins the BIG ONE: Pediatric Surgery. This is where his heart is, for now at least. I guess anything could change after being on the rotation for a month. Pedisurg has been his strongest interest and the main reason we came to Cincinnati, so I'm not anticipating a change. Also, he did a month long rotation in pedisurg last September when he went to Houston as well as spending lots of time with the pediatric surgeon for Tech, so I feel confident that he will continue to pursue this avenue. Great rotation to have a brand new baby, huh? I'm mean no pressure, he's only setting the tone for the next 6 years and trying to establish some kind of foothold to help give him a tiny shot of staying in Cincinnati for his fellowship. No big deal... :) Ok, so probably it's not a big deal. I don't know how the system works. Maybe no one will pay attention to him because he's just the intern. Maybe they won't notice that he's a walking zombie with spit up on his scrubs. He'll actually probably fit right in, there's tons of spit up in a children's hospital and all interns look like zombies for the most part. Either way, if you're reading this I have some specific prayer requests:
1. A health delivery of a healthy and happy baby
2. Carey's pedisurg rotation: that he'll find strength, endurance, patience, rest, and sanity with a new screaming baby waking him up every 2 hours. Also that he'll be able to focus, learn, and make a good impression during this rotation.
3. AGW: understanding and tolerance during all of the changes

I know it's a lot, but thank you for those prayers. Carey has worked so hard to get where he is now and I know that he will have lots of pressure placed on him to perform well. He'll also be torn between his family and the hospital. He tries very hard to get home in time to see AGW before bed each night, but this rotation may have more demanding hours. He will also be on call more often which is very difficult for AGW. The great thing is that he loves pedisurg and that makes work much more pleasant and he is on vacation the 1st two weeks of November! So all of the long and sleepless nights in October will lead into much needed time at home with his babies at the end of the month.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

AGW

I realize that I haven't had much to say lately. That's usually a good thing. The only thing interesting around here is AGW. She's hilarious. Here's my attempt to verbalize her charming personality:

She tells me to "hole non" (hold on)

She asks "You OK? " and the only answer she will accept is yes

She likes to help me go night-night

She (usually) has very good manners: she loves to say "thank you Mommy" even when it's not necessary:
Me: "Wow, you sure have a lot of boo-boos"
AGW: "Yeah, thank you Mommy"

When she gets really excited she yells "I happy!"

She is obsessed with trains, turtles, bridges, and rivers

She loves to sing and dance

She refuses to see my belly (denial of what's to come?)

She claps and cheers when we drive by our church

She loves to look for "her" red truck when Daddy is coming home from work

Daddy goes night-night at the 'opital to help friends feel better

A gummy vitamin makes anything and everything OK

She is very interested in dressing herself and attempts (unsuccessfully) to do so

She enjoys "reading" everything to me :)


There really is so much more, but I happen to think that every single facial expression is hilarious, every word out of her mouth is precious (almost), and every developmental milestone makes her a genius, so of course I could continue this list forever :)

Thursday, September 16, 2010

1st Day of Preschool!

Today was AGW's 1st day of preschool. She went for a little over an hour and seemed to love it. Her biggest concern was when they would have snack time! :) I cried as I prepared her breakfast but by the time the afternoon rolled around, I was looking forward to a little quiet time! She goes again tomorrow for the entire 3 hours.



This week we welcomed fall by painting "punkins"! Give the girl some glitter and she's happy as can be!







Sunday Carey, AGW, and I went for a long hike in Mt. Airy Forest. I was in heaven!

Relaxing!











Friday, September 10, 2010

It's a call night. That usually means that it will be a long, rough night. AGW and I carried on our tradition of chick flick movie night and now she is fighting her way to sleep. I hate that for her, she just loves going to sleep with her daddy. I try to wear her out, but she's just used to a night time routine that includes her daddy. It's their special time together.

Anyway.... around her things are pretty boring. I'm not complaining, that's a good thing. Today I dug out the fall decor and put out what I could. I seem to be missing somethings (go figure) and will probably find them when I'm decorating for Christmas.

AGW has started a new thing: she loves to help. She has to hold my hand and help me up from my chair, down the stairs, and to and from each room in the house. She honestly is a very thoughtful 2 year old. She also has a very kind heart. When a "friend" (usually a kid near by that she has never interacted with whatsoever) is upset, she will go over to them, pat them on the back, and ask "ok?". She becomes very concerned when someone is clearly upset and is learning to show compassion by comforting them any way she can. She's also been known to bring me or one of her puppies her lovie if she thinks it will help us feel better. I love watching her display this compassion for others and hope to encourage it continuously. I'm sure she will be a great helper when her baby comes!

Now don't get me wrong, we are still struggling through the terrible two's. This week has been especially challenging. I've tried really hard to crack down and be very consistent with her discipline because I don't want to wait until I have no patience when Hayes is here to enforce the rules. So this week we are working on controlling her sass, and she has lots of it!

Carey was lucky enough to come home early a few days this week. It was perfect timing with my increased level of exhaustion and AGW's persistent battles. CT is going well although he's not getting to see the inside of the OR as much as he'd like. Being able to witness his first open-heart surgery made things a little better though.
? nderstand that is a typical start for most toddlers, but my toddler loves to sleep until after 10. What happened??? :)
? Today we had no playgroup, no gym hours, no dr appointments, it was the perfect day to sleep in. Of course this is the day that agw wakes up at 7:45. I u

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Silly cat! He actually sleeps this way! AGW has learned how to drag him around and pretty much tortures him all day :) He handles it very well, considering. We love this park! She is so brave now, she goes down all the slides and climbs and hangs on anything she can. What a monkey!

This is at preschool orientation. She starts school next week.




What a goober!



Pretty girl. Pretty flowers.



She is LOVING the cool weather and wearing her new jacket!

AGW also loved the Labor Day fireworks downtown. When they started she jumped and yelled "I happy!!!"
Poor girl. Daddy always passes out and forgets to share the bed! I don't think she minds though!

Her climbing makes me so nervous :)



Alright folks, nothing new here. More to come this weekend!











Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Where to begin...

Last week was busy. I have pictures, but I'll have to upload them tomorrow. We started off the week with AGW's preschool orientation. It went really well and I love the program so far. The school is at a church, although it's not a religion based program. The church is only a block or so from our house so we can walk, and we both enjoy that.

AGW and I also began our Christian Moms Group and Mothers of Preschoolers group at our church. Both were great opportunities for me to meet other moms and for AGW to play with other kids her age. The highlights for her were snacks and a movie, and now she thinks that's why we go to church! :)

Parks are still a common interest of ours and AGW and I continue to hit the trails, swings, and slides, several times a week.

We also continue to frequent the gym and lately I've had to drag her away! I'm just so glad that she's enjoying herself while I attempt to walk Hayes on out :) I'm really going to miss that place during my required 6 week recovery, but I sure will be motivated to get back!

Hayes and I have weekly doctor's appointments now and we received great news today that he is in the correct position (unlike AGW), very low, and I'm starting the slow progression to labor. I'm so ecstatic about the possibility of going into labor naturally that I almost can't sleep. I refuse to pray for it to go my way instead, I pray for a healthy baby and delivery of any kind. So this news was unexpected and gave me hope!

If I do continue to progress and end up going into labor in a few weeks, then everything will workout with AGW. We will take her and get her camped out in the room along with us. I have all kinds of fun stuff to entertain her for the many hours I may be laboring. The pack-n-play will be her temporary bed for the overnight stay and everything else will work it's self out. Some people don't agree with a toddler being in the room while I deliver, but fortunately it's not their toddler! Carey and I have a couple of friends that IF available may come distract AGW during the actual birth, but for the most part, she'll be right there with us. We'll see how well that plan works out!

Carey is doing well on his cardiothoracic rotation. Much to my disappointment, last week he was home around 8:30 each night. He did get to come home for the Labor Day afternoon, so I can't complain too much! I'm not sure that he's getting any opportunities to step into the O.R. but his upper level residents are better so he doesn't complain much.

A very boring week, huh? I'll take it! Pictures soon....
& s of now) we won't need a c-section! Praying everything continues to progress naturally :)
& It begins! Hayes is In the right position, really low, and I'm 75% effaced. We have 4 weeks to go and we're off to a great start! My doctor feels like (a

Saturday, September 4, 2010

? must be a post-call zombie :)
? Carey is asleep in agw's room. Through the monitor I can hear jabbering, a train whistle, and little footsteps running back and forth across the room. He