This is how the Department of Surgery Chairman began "This will be the hardest year of your life... I expect you to strive to be perfect...". He also stressed the importance of balance at home, proper nutrition, rest (ha!), and exercise.
The Associate Program director advised against getting a pet if single (hint: you won't be home. The poor animal will suffer) and a fellow intern respond "Just stop by the Watson Zoo"!
I'm recognizing a part of Carey that I haven't seen in about a year. I had hoped the first day would end this way; he came home passionate and excited about surgery. That fire was back and he had an eagerness to be challenged and to rise above the challenge. He thrives in situations like this. The next 7 years will be tough, but he has such a love for this game. This is his calling.
Home...was a different story. We moped and were lost. I was uncomfortable and out of place, out of routine and left alone. It was weird. Of course I had AGW to entertain and the animals to love on, but all of a sudden things were different. I didn't think about how his going to work would affect me. I knew AGW would take it rough and that Cash would be devastated. I forgot that I would wake up to a new house and new city on my own. It wasn't bad, just different. Kind of lonely. So I gave myself today to sit around and be in shock. From tomorrow on, I will be proactive.
This is a new chapter and challenge in my life. I was a stay at home mom from November until we moved, but I was busy doing residency research, trying to sell a house, and preparing to move. Before that, I worked. Now I'm not exactly sure what to do with myself! For the last month I had to drag Carey out of bed every day and and supervise home improvement projects (rough life, huh?) now I'm a full-time soccer mom without an agenda. It's unnatural for me. I read briefly about this in other medical mom blogs. Their advise: stay busy, get involved, create your own life. That was a lot easier in Lubbock where I grew up and had all of my family and friends. New city, new life, new adventure. I hope I have the energy! :)
Tomorrow Carey starts a little earlier and has course training all day. Then he has to come home and study for the course to be able to pass his certification test next week. AGW and I are going to story time at the local library in the morning and the petting zoo in the afternoon. The neighbor Elen who is 15, is also coming over to spend some time getting acquainted with AGW tomorrow. She will be babysitting for us Wednesday so that Carey and I can go to a social function with the other new residents and chiefs. The babysitting thing will be interesting, poor Elen.
Oh! Tonight AGW and I went and toured the preschool down the street. It was great and I love so many things about the program. I believe that we want to enroll her in the 3 day afternoon program starting this fall. I can't believe that my baby is starting preschool. She talks about friends so much everyday and is really missing socializing with other kids so I have to remind myself that it's good to let her go. I'm definitely going to take it harder than she does!
Carey is suppose to have tied 10,000 knots to be ready for surgery on July 1st. He has 8 days to do so if he hasn't already. AGW thought that she should be tying knots too. I'm betting that she'll be better at it than her daddy pretty soon!
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